I woke this morning just before my alarm set off. I got out of bed all excited about going for my long run with Philip.
Today was such a faff. When we got up I could hear the rain outside the window and cars going by our house splashing puddles along side the verges of the road. Rain never usually bothers me on runs. Actually I have been known to kit up and run out the door when it’s raining, just because it’s raining. The only thing is that Philip my husband runs as well now and he doesn’t have a waterproof jacket yet. I kinda felt guilty about wearing my Marmot Essence Waterproof jacket when he’d just be wearing a technical T-Shirt (albeit a techie with a great cause but wouldn’t keep him dry). I got over this and decided to wear it. I thought it’d be stupid for not one of us to wear it.
Next Philip decided to wear his boxers with his short shorts. It took me a good 15 minutes to persuade him to take them off because it looked so stupid. He did eventually after I took a few photos to show him how it looked from someone else’s angle.
Next we faffed about with his bag. I bought him a Terra Nova Laser 20 Ultralite Bag. This bag is a waste of time. It looks half decent in the pics and it very light but very flimsy I find. Not the kind of quality and proof of good thinking I normally associate with this brand name. He also tried to attach a waterproof cover to the bag but it left a huge gaping gap the size of a grapefruit at the top, which rendered the whole thing pointless. I asked him to take the items out of his bag and passed him a large waterproof Velcro seal bag which he could then put into his Terra Nova Laser Bag. Alas it seemed we could be on our way.
I grabbed my Garmin and he grabbed his phone and then we had another problem with where his phone would go. Once we sorted that out we stepped outside to locate satellites on our devices. We closed the door behind us and Philip says “This is no good lets get on our tights, it’s cold and windy and wet”.
“Good idea” I replied. Golly did I really have to deal with all this stuff before I got all my proper kit? :O
So we both went back inside and changed into full length tights. The first pair I tried to put on the zip at the bottom broke away from the tights and I had to take them off and throw them to the side to deal with later. I put on a second pair. Phew I Was ready to go again. Meanwhile Philip then decides he wants to wear his short shorts on top of his tights! What the hell is wrong with this man!? I tried for all but 2 minutes to persuade him to take them off and realised I didn’t want to spend another 13 at it so I just left him to it to look a wanker HAHA.
Finally we are heading out the door again. We stand near the house to locate satellites, we find them and on we go! We ran for all about 0.10 miles. I stopped in my tracks. I stopped my Garmin. “Can’t do it my foot hurts”. I turn around and head back home. Philip said he might just go and do a 3 miler or something. I mentioned he should do the whole 12 miles if he is capable. I offered him to come home and try on my jacket for size so he’d be more comfortable. He agreed. We both came back into the house to sort the jacket. Thankfully I had returned because Philip hadn’t closed the door fully behind him and it was open slightly. When we went in our wallets sat right there on the table shouting “Please take us”. lol.
He tried the jacket and it fit well so he got ready again and off he went also using my Garmin for the course map.
I announced this week that I was finally able to say my foot problems were gone. I’d had this ongoing problem since October 2014. It first showed itself as I was at my shop working and on my feet I couldn’t stand in one place for longer than a few moments before intense burning and dullness set in. Over October, November and December this burning intensified and I found even sitting on a chair at the shop my feet still burned. Then even lay down it hurt. The only time it seemed to subside was when I was walking.
This last 2 weeks things were looking up. I had managed to get my walking up a little and the odd 3 miles or so here and there. Nothing intense and nothing too fast. I even did a Parkrun at a much slower pace than my PB as to not treat it as a race but more of an easy speed training session and a chance to show off my Vegan Runners T-Shirt.
Since I started running nearly 3 years ago I think the longest I have ever managed to run is about 4 months before getting injured and needed loads of time off. The average is probably 6 weeks. It’s a little annoying but I see it as a chance to learn about injuries, what they are from and how they are dealt with and prevented in future. I fidn myself often making the same mistakes but I do reduce time and time again when I return. I have spent more time off running than running due to this but I’ll get there so long as I never give up. I have done 198 runs now. So 2 more and I’m 200 strong and still not bored of it in the slightest. In fact ever more interested with every single day that passes.
I do think I might need to cancel my 40 miler coming up though which is annoying. I have entered 12 events since I began running and I have missed out on 10 of them. Gotta take some proper time to rest and recover. I keep saying this but obviously I am not taking long enough and not reducing intensity enough and distance enough. I think next course of action is leaving out speed training and long runs altogether. I will go out running 3 miles 3 times a week for now and only once my feet feel better again.
I think the hardest thing is that I work October through January with my franchise. I’d planned this year to do a lot of National Trails and Long Distance Walks by running/walking the entire lengths over however long it took to do it comfortably. I didn’t expect to be at home all the time nursing foot issues for running 20 mile weeks! It’s really hard for me to think about getting out there and working a regular job through the rest of the year. One because when I stand up or walk more my feet burn more but the biggest reason being I don’t do well in normal jobs. Every job I had had has ended up with me telling managers that they are complete tossers who need to treat people like people and not machines or robots and telling them to go do one. Then I get depressed and have suicidal thoughts and hallucinations. Of course I’m not suicidal and haven’t done that kind of thing since I was in my teens because I have learnt better coping mechanisms. Either way it still ruins me for several months.
Anyway blah blah blah hey? I know everyone has problems but whats’t the point in having a blog if you can’t share yours? 😉
So I’m going to sulk for all about an hour and move on and pick up the mess and try again again. Keep pushing on. I’m a firm believer that so long as we never give up we will always get where we want to be. All I need to do is focus on the positives now, bring happiness, peace, joy and good food and movies into my life to speed recovery and get back out there. 🙂
Thanks for reading and letting me offload today.